Primal Physical Survival
- secure access to food, water, and shelter as shared universal living needs.
Physical Security - to be safe from physical
harm, from acts of hostile aggression.
Social Status - As a
female and single parent, there is a need to be able to ensure and safeguard the future and
ongoing primal and physical security of my 3 children, even now that they have become
adults. Their children, should they breed, will also kindle my nurturing protective instincts.
Preservation/nurturing of the tribe/clan/species.
Age - Aging, and its
associated ailments and infirmities introduces the need to have assured access to incremental
community/medical support,
as has
cancer treatment (beaten too! Hurray!) There is also a fascinating liberation
and emotional autonomy that creeps in with age.
Afterthought on that last -
I keep overlooking the impact Cancer has had. It haunts all my thoughts
at some level. I could find myself facing rapid decline and early death
from metastatic disease next month/next year - or I could die disease free at
the ripe old age of 110! (women in my family are all long lived) In
either event, the awareness has profoundly coloured my choices and perceptions
of threat and opportunity. It has also brought an interesting clarity of
purpose and new value for the quality of life, whether it be day to day or
long term.
Another after thought - My
mother was a polio survivor 1953 and raised all four of us from a wheel
chair. This has left a much stronger awareness of the physical,
psychological and social limitations and capabilities associated with a
chronic physical disability.
Still another afterthought
- I have never before seen myself as particularly vulnerable but in one week
the screen from my bedroom window was stolen right out of the frame (in the
afternoon) and a stranger simply walked in to my living room through the
patio while I was working around the apartment late at night. A middle
aged woman alone is perceived as vulnerable, easy prey. This made me
angry. I am also moving to a safer location.